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I am a highly sensitive person, to the point where it can at times feel like it consumes me and is hard to shake off. But in the mist of all this sensitivity, is this ability to “feel” what others may pass by. I have a vivid, over active imagination, that I get great pleasure in exploring. All of these parts of me are represented in my photography. I dream of these images, I see them long before I ever get the opportunity to capture them, and sometimes they remain in the pages of my journals or simply in my mind.

The Fall series is perhaps a perfect place to start this Behind the Screen discussion. I discussed in this post that I was looking through the glass and found myself exploring feelings of melancholy while taking in the scene that was in front of me. My observation of the scene shaped the images I created. The way I took in the scene, the details I mentally recorded, dictated the choices I made with regards to camera settings, the composition, the focus, and the motion within the image.

To me, melancholy feels like I am sitting in the center of a merry go round, that is spinning so fast that I can no longer make out the world around me. Instead, my body sinks further into the center, the nauseating pull of gravity forcing me into my frozen position.

In order to transfer my interpretation of melancholy, I selected to shoot this with a 3.2 second shutter speed. I needed enough time to capture motion blur of the leaves blowing in the wind and allow for time to rotate the camera, which simulated the feeling of spinning.

I had two choices to make after selecting my shutter speed. I needed to decide Aperture (depth of field) and focus. Because I wanted the environment to be recognizable, I opted to use a large depth of field and used f32 for my aperture. Had I wanted a softer, less recognizable scene, I would have used a shallower depth of field and probably would have shot closer to 2.8 to give it a smooth creamy feel. In order to do that I would have had to use a neutral density filter to block out the excess light from the long shutter speed.

The second decision was focus. I could have shot this completely out of focus and still achieved a beautiful abstract fall scene. But I really wanted the texture and the ability to capture the motion of each leaf, as if they were brush strokes, so I opted to manually focus so that the scene was clearly in focus and then to distort that focus through the motion of my camera.

With the settings in place, I composed my scene so that I could pull in the browns from the trees in the background and the oranges, yellows and greens from the foreground. There was a storm approaching and so on one of the trees, the leaves had flipped to reveal their white underside. This added to the color palate and is a large focal point of the texture within the images.

With all the technical aspects in place, I was finally free to just feel the process of creating these images. I’d wait for wind and would sway my hands in rhythm with its motion. Allowing myself the freedom to paint my melancholic vision with my camera resulting in unique images from frame to frame.


In post production, I did minimal editing. I added contrast via a curves layer set to soft light at 46 percent opacity. To add warmth, I did a pink and translucent gradient map set to soft light at 25 percent opacity and I also added a solid color layer (#ce9e7b) set to multiply at 25 percent opacity. Because I did the bulk of the creative work before and during the shooting process, each image in this series took less than two minutes to edit start to finish. Here is the final edited version of this image.


The one frame series is a new work in progress, which seeks to illustrate how the viewers perspective of a single image can be skewed depending on the photographers processing method. Processing is a crucial step in the story telling process and affects not only visual perspectives but also influences the visceral response of the audience. The first image is shown with true to life color which reflected the warm tonality of the fall foliage. The second image is converted to black and white and no longer resembles the fall scene. Instead it invites the viewer to look deeper into the darkness and search for hidden meanings within the seemingly meaningless image. These revelations are intended to be unique to your perspective and life experiences. What you see and feel about this image today may very well be quite different a year from now, which is what makes this type of abstract expressionist photography so interesting to explore. When I initially shot this series, I was exploring feelings of melancholy and the conversion to black and white illustrates the feeling of sadness, as if the world is uncontrollably spinning, as I sink further into myself and my melancholic feelings. The third image takes this concept further by helping the viewer connect the symbolic meaning of melancholy by providing a visual reference for it. This was created by layering in another image and selectively masking that image, so that it blends seamlessly within the original. The darkness and chaos of the third image is constructed to purposefully contrast the way viewers are typically presented with images of children.


“The Fall” series of images were captured using a 3.2 second shutter speed while gently rotating the camera back and forth. the feeling of melancholy tempered with the frigid wind is juxtaposed with the radiant warmth of the fall foliage. I was inspired to make this series as I stood at the door watching the sky turn gray. The trees began to sway heavily, as the sound of the wind whistled just beyond the door. I found myself shivering, as I gently rocked my head back and forth, visualizing what could become of this dreary fall day. The 3.2 second shutter speed was appropriate to ensure the motion blur of leaves could be captured, while allowing me the time needed to gently rotate the camera back and forth. The dizzying effect serves to symbolize the melancholic feelings that were explored internally as I peered out the door.

I hope everyone had a spooky and sweet Halloween! It was an especially fun day for us because my oldest turned 8! School parties, cupcakes, candy, and costumes–who wouldn’t love all that on their birthday?

Now for the Halloween pictures!

They are hugging and smiling! It is a photo miracle–normally they hug and then some shoving and pulling ensues and pretty soon they are on the ground yelling at each other.

Somebunny (sorry I’ve been dying to use a pun) didn’t want anything to do with my camera. She did, however, have a full on “I want mommy night”!

She giggled and clapped and sang to me as we trick or treated through the neighborhood.

What does the fox say? My little fox said “thank you” as he trick or treated! He was MELT MY HEART cute. He was much more of a trickster at the school parties 😉

She wanted to be a zombie princess but I am so glad I talked her into using her owl costume one last time!

Poor girl, even though I brought Crisco to the party for her to use instead of peanut butter, she still managed to get a little bit of peanut butter on her forearms.

Then she couldn’t stop scratching and touched her face with her hands, so she had hives there too!

It was funny to watch her pick through the candy buckets and happily give her older brother all the candy with peanuts.

My Birthday boy!!! How cute is he as a hammerhead shark!

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I can’t wait to see what Natalie came up with for our spooky theme…will it be a trick  -OR- treat? Click here to find out!